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Arsenal 2-0 Middlesbrough ;D
Captain Fabregas, baby! (:

Ola!
I have to blog about this.
Okay, I just read a post from a blog. My so-called friend's blog. Okay, no more questions about who the person is. But the post really moved me. Like really. For one thing, the English was like..really good. Excellent vocabulary and grammar, I should say. But the thing that moved me was the way it was written and about the feelings that were in it.
You know how we people take our families for granted. How does it feel like/how will it feel like when you do not live with them anymore? I guess that will eventually happen. But..will we be able to accustom ourselves to such a change?
After reading, I feel like I take my parents for granted. Being with them in an overseas country, a million miles away from where I was born and where I spent my first two years of my life..I guess I should learn to appreciate them more. Besides, I don't think I appreciate my home country, India. Can't really blame me for that..on a whole, I have only spent barely 3 years there. I have spent the rest of my life here, in Singapore.
But what would it have been like if things had turned out differently?
Would I have been a different person? Would my likes and dislikes have differed?
Would I have been able to appreciate my parents and my country more?
Was Singapore a mistake?
It definitely wasn't a mistake in a way..cause I made so many friends here. Even though some of them are drifting away from me..or have drifted away from me..I still cherish the moments I've spent with them. And I know I wouldn't have met them if I hadn't migrated. But would it have been different if my life had gone otherwise?
Would I even be an Arsenal fan? Arsenal 'grew' on me after I came here..since Singapore is a soccer-fanatic (sort of) country. Would I have turned out to be a die-hard cricket fan instead? That would be a bit..weird..cause the last time I watched a cricket match was more than 3 years ago.

Okay, I think you're probably wondering 'What's going on with Akshaya?'
I don't know why I am thinking about these things..but I jus felt like writing them down in this blog..a blog that has followed me since I was in Sec2.
I wonder..ten years down the road..would I be the same Akshaya as I am today?
It is such an uncertain question. And sometimes I really wonder.
Future. It is so...unpredictable.

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'When it was me' by Paula Deanda

Ooh, no
Yeah, yeah

She's got green eyes and she's 5'5"
Long brown hair all down her back
Cadillac truck
So the hell what
What's so special about that
She used to model, she's done some acting
So she weighs a buck 'o 5
And I guess that she's alright if perfection is what you like

Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

Tell me what makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

And now you don't feel the same
I remember you would shiver everytime I said your name
You said nothing felt as good as when you gaze into my eyes
Now you don't care I'm alive
How did we let the fire die

Ooh, ooh, and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way

What makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

That made you smile (me)
That made you laugh (me)
Me that made you happier than you have ever been, oh me
That was your world (me)
Your perfect girl
Nothing about me has changed
That's why I'm here wondering

What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me)
What makes her just everything I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me

When it was me
When it was me
When it was me

I think this song is quite nice (: Haha. Try listening to it! (:

Funeral for a friend,
May your soul rest in peace.

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"I love you, Lucas, and I probably always will... but we go days without having a meaningful conversation... and I used to miss you so much when that happened... but it never seemed like you missed me. And I guess because of it I stopped missing you." - Brooke Davis

One Tree Hill! It has been ages! ):

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Liverpool 4-4 Arsenal

It's up for grabs now! (lol!)

It would have been the ideal match only if the referree didn't make a mistake in ruling out Nikki B's goal!

THREE CHEERS FOR ANDREY ARSHAVIN FOR SCORING FOUR FANTASTIC GOALS AGAINST LIVERPOOL AT ANFIELD. AND HE IS THE FIRST PLAYER TO ACHIEVE THIS FEAT FOR MORE THAN 60 YEARS.

OH MY FREAKING GOD.
I am speechless. I watched the second half of the match. And OMG, Thank God I didn't get a heart attack at the end of it. How can a match ever be more thrilling than this one?! Seriously. I was continuously biting my nails..and I didn't even sit down for the entire second half. It was THAT GOOD! ARSENAL SHOULD HAVE WON THE MATCH! Nicklas Bendtner scored a goal that was INCORRECTLY ruled off as offside..but it was actually onside! So Arsenal should have won 5-4! OMG. And the thing was that Arshavin put Arsenal ahead during STOPPAGE TIME. And jus two minutes from time, STUPID BENAYOUN EQUALISED FOR LIVERPOOL. I seriously seriously seriously felt like killing him. So close to such an emphatic victory and he HAD to spoil it! I will bear a grudge against him for this, I swear! But credit to Liverpool, they didn't deserve to loose. If only they had taken their chances, they would have scored more. But I can't deny the fact that Liverpool proved be really tough opponents for Arsenal. But I guess, I really have to praise Arsenal. Liverpool went 2-1 ahead very early in the second half and it takes a lot for such a young, injury-hit team like the team that was playing against Liverpool to make a comeback. Seriously! I am so, so proud of Arsenal! (: I felt that Walcott should have started the game..and I felt that Cesc SHOULD NOT have been deployed in the hole position but in central midfield instead. But anyway, Arsenal switched to its cultural 4-4-2 formation after Walcott's substitution. Nikki B didn't have a good game..but he actually got on the scoresheet ONLY FOR THE REF TO INCORRECTLY DISALLOW IT! Kieran Gibbs had a REALLY good game. In fact, he played better than Sagna. Centre Back was not that good performance today..they should have done better at defence and not conceded four goals..ESPECIALLY THE LAST ONE (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

ANDREY ARSHAVINNNNNNNNNN!
Regardless, I am really, really happy for Arshavin. I never knew this guy was SO GOOD! I mean..OMG. He has scored 7 goals from 7 matches now. And he is not even 100percent fit! Imagine if he is 100percent fit! OMG. I can't even imagine it. But words can't explain the way he played today. He had a slow start to the game..but he made his presence felt with his emphatic goals. All of them were struck so hard that Reina had NO CHANCE of saving them. Seriously! The curler was the best. I can watch those four goals continuously and I wouldn't get bored. It is that good! Really! I really hope there is even more to come from him. Such a shame that he is cup-tied for Champions League. If not..IMAGINE!
Moving away from Arshavin, Nasri had a really good game as well. He had a couple of long range efforts but failed to either hit the target or really test the 'keeper. Cesc had a decent game. Walcott had another great game against the club he supported when he was young. I thought he was going to repeat THAT emphatic run he made past four Liverpool defenders in THAT match. But he chose to pass it to Arshavin and let him do the job. WOAH.
I am sort of sad that Arsenal didn't win ): I NEED RETRIBUTION FOR THAT MATCH! But yea..maybe the next one between Arsenal and Liverpool. And also regarding the fact that Arsenal was just TWO MINUTES away from victory. OMG! Okay, nevermind. I should say offensively, Arsenal is doing well. But improvements need to be done defensively! Haha.

All right. Back to my life. I was really contemplating on watching the match yesterday. Hmmmmmmmmm. But anyway, I have decided to watch the encore today. School has been fun with Slim and May around ;D
You are not the only one who is watching, you know? (:
I think i have to really start studying. Like seriously. I wanna do well! I want to. Screw the CAs that have finished..I shall work harder for the future CAs (:
And CCA commitments will also be increasing..Hmm. Welcome to JC life! Hahaha.
I shall try my best to strike a balance between everything (:
And now..I have to go start homework. I don't wanna wait till last minute to finish everything!
AND MY PI! OH NO! SUBMISSION ON MONDAY. I have have have to do a good job.
Al rights. Chill, Akshaya.
I think I will end this post here. I need to bathe, sleep..then continue with my PI! hahah.
All rights. BUH-BYEE!
<333
Victoria Concordia Crescit,

Labels: What a match that way

I am not afraid to keep on living, I am not afraid to walk this world alone, Honey, if you stay, I'll be forgiven, Nothing you can say can stop me going home,

Famous last words,

Labels: Famous last words

Andrey and Yulia:

They are a veryy good couple right?! hahah (: I think they are (:

You and I.

Wigan Athletic 1-4 Arsenal ;D

WOOOHOOOO! Wigan went ahead first thanks to Mido's scrambling goal from an acrobatic effort. And the one notable thing about Mido..he was an ex-spud. Eeyer. I actually thought Arsenal's performance in the first half was pretty woeful. It was the classic example of a premier league game due to European games' hangover, if you get what I mean (: So yea. But there was a significant revival towards the end of the first half. And Arsenal carried that through to the second half. Theo Walcott scored the equaliser before Mikael Silvestre, Andrey Arshavin and Alex Song added on to the tally. I guess the most important goal was from Walcott..the equaliser. And credit to him for the cool finish. He was soon substituted..but I guess he had done well enough to earn himself a rest (: Ade and van Persie were then substituted in..and I guess they up-ed Arsenal's tempo. That helped a lot, in my opinion. Ade's touches were pretty...classy, I should say. Perhaps, we are getting to see glimpses of the incredible form he displayed last season (: Anyway, most important thing: all three points in the bag. A big week is ahead..with Champions League Quarter Finals second Leg at home against Villareal and FA Cup semi-final against Chelski. So, if all goes well, it is a final and a semi-final at the end of the week ;D And I really, really want a Arsenal vs Barcelona Champions League final! I think Barca is most probably through. No offence to Bayern Munich..but I don't think they can really score four or more goals against Barca without conceding. I mean..I think it is too much to ask from in a match. It is still possible..but I am not so optimistic about it. Regarding the Chelski vs Liverpool match..I can't really be bothered. I'm probably gonna follow Barca and Arsenal and 'ensure' that they get into the finals. I want a replay of 2005 Paris Final! It wasn't fair on Arsenal's point of view..I mean..Yea..I think Gooners will agree with me. THAT night. /: But I want Arsenal to make up for it and prove themselves against Barca! (: And MUST BEAT CHELSKI! LONDON RIVALS! LONDON DERBY! MUST BEAT THEMMMMMM! On your face, Cashley Cole.

And Cesc Fabregas said that he wants Arsenal to go on an unbeaten run till the end of season. It is equivalent to saying that he wants/expects Arsenal to win the Champions League and FA Cup! Hhahaa. Anyway, easier said than done. But I REALLY hope it happens! Fingers crossed.

Okay nothing much besides that. I fainted this morning while brushing my teeth. And I realised that I couldn't walk properly after that. So, I didn't go to school today. I went to see the doctor and got my MC (: And he said that I wasn't eating and sleeping properly /: I THINK I'M EATING TOO MUCH! Okay, fine! I shall try to alter my eating and sleeping habits for my health's sake. And I bet my parents are going to be bugging me regarding this from now onwards /: And the doc said I have 'very low blood pressure'. I had that problem in Sec3 when I was excused from NAPFA..but I thought it had gotten better. Apparently, no! ): But he said that my heart is functioning properly..so nothing to do with my heart. So..YAY for that! haha. Okay, I think I should take my medicine regularly..and not be very 'don't care' about it. Okays, I will try, all right!

Okays now. I gotta go. The medicine is making me feel drowsy...drowsyyyy. drowsyy. Okay yea, you get what I mean. So before my eyelids close while I'm in front of the computer, I shall switch it off!
Okays, BUH-BYEE!
<333
Victoria Concordia Crescit,

Labels: I am sick

Just cause you're raising the bet,
And call the shots on me,
It really doesn't phase me,
How you spend your time,

The Odyssey was the BOMB!
And Shalini is watching it now..and she said it is really nice! YAY.
Today was great! (:
ISSY! STOP LAUGHING AT MEE!
Today's session wasn't so bad (: I feel like watching The Odyssey again..it is a really good stress reliever (:
More later or tomorrow..I have to do my homework now (:
And I hated the rain today ):
All rights. Off now.
BUH-BYEE!
Victoria Concordia Crescit,

'Right here' by Brandy

When you feel your hearts guarded
And you see the breaks started
When the clouds have all departed
U’ll be right here with me

B rock…
Darkchild..
We back..
U’ll be right here with me

You’ll be right here with me
oh, oh x16
You’ll be right here with me

When your life is going to fast,
off the train tracks
I can slow it down, oh
just when you think your bout to turn back
‘Stead you might crash
I’ll be your ground, oh

oh when you feel your hearts guarded
and you see the breaks started
and when the clouds have all Departed
you’ll be right here with me
and when your tears are dry from crying
and when the worlds turned silent
so when the clouds have all Departed
you will be right here with me.

oh oh x10
(x2)
i will be right here with you
you’ll be right here with me

when your trapped and there’s just no key
and you can’t breathe
i breathe for you
the fire’s got you down on both knees
and the walls are closing in but i will
break it through
and when you feel alone
im a be at home
whenever comes and go
you know i got you

oh when you feel your hearts guarded
and when you see the breaks started
and when the clouds have all Departed
you’ll be right here with me
(you’ll see the sun)
and when your tears are dry from crying, crying
and when the worlds turned silent, silent
so when the clouds have all Departed
you will be right here with me.

I will be here right beside you
every step you take, yea
i will be your strength your shelter
shield you from the rain

(x2)
(oh when you feel), oh when you feel your hearts guarded
and when you see the breaks started
and when the clouds have all Departed
you’ll be right here with me (right here)
and when your tears are dry from crying
and when the worlds turned silent
so when the clouds have all Departed
you will be right here with me.

(x4)
i will be right here with you
you’ll be right here with me

yea

'I feel like I am leading a team of warriors, not a team of footballers'-Cesc Fabregas, Arsenal Captain.

(: Cesc is the best. best. best! <3

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All rights. So here I am, sitting in front of the computer again. And my break is going to end in exactly thirteen minutes..after which I'll be having Physics practical. Today was super mundane. Issy and Priya got DC as they came late /: And perhaps, the highlight of the day is yet to come. THE ODYSSEY TONIGHT! I am going with this BIG group of people...mostly from May's OG and from my class. And NICK TEOOOOO! NEXT TIME, TELL ME ABOUT TICKETS EARLIERRR! Hahaha. So anyway, I realized that I've been forgetful recently..and that I've been forgetting to BRING my homework to school. Sad. I should write more things in my ACJC notebook (: (: HAHAA!

Okays. So, nothing much. My 'weekend' will be really packed and I have tests every day next week. So, time to buck up and reflect as well. And..I've been making more friends (:

Arsenal 1-1 Villareal

(Could have done better guys!)

Barcelona 4-0 Bayern Munich (OMG!)

Labels: life is great

Is there any chance that I'll see you today?

I miss you. I love you.

"Panic" by Backstreet Boys

[Nick:]
Stop it, stop it
Stop it, stop it
Go, stop and go
I just hit static
I used to read you
Loud and clear
Not like this
It's so erratic

[Brian:]
And I'm not rational
When I see you around
Your inconsistency
And you know it's dragging me down
You're so conflicted baby

[Chorus:]
You're always walking away
One step and everything's over
And you're running back to me
You say I let you down
Baby take me in or just take me out
I'm already dead
I already said (I already said) I'm sorry

[Nick:]
Stop it
I've made mistakes
I've been an addict
A blind fanatic
Don't you know
You're not immune to the panic
With somebody

[Brian:]
When the snow hits your skin
The cold don't last forever
But you'll live it again
If you don't let seasons change

[Repeat Chorus]

[AJ:]
How many times do I have to say it
Before you believe me

[Nick:]
Stop it, stop it
Stop and go

[All:] Panic!

[Repeat Chorus]

Arsenal 2-0 Manchester City ;D ;D

Labels: i miss you

I screwed up my life,

Hello.
Here I sit, in front of the computer. The local time is 10:26pm. It is 2:26pm in London. Well, that was a random detail anyway. I feel so stretched..so ripped apart..like falling apart. Oh whatever..like it matters. It's over...
Sometimes, when you have so much to say, I think this blog really helps me. I mean, besides the times when I keep on ranting about Arsenal and stuff..when problems really do surface or when life jus gets DIFFICULT, I feel like this blog is a good avenue for me to turn to and pen down my opinions/feelings. Hardships.

I am not a facade. Believe me or not, believe in the truth.

So, today started like crap due to hangovers from last night. I could barely open my eyes..they were so red from...last night. So, I was actually considering ponning school today. But I decided against it as I thought I would miss too much to catch up with. Besides, I will be missing a lot of lessons next week due to Theatre Week and The Odyssey.

So today's session didn't seem as tiring as usual. I mean, we managed to spend time sewing. Might sound boring..but it is not that bad, trust me. And I was just chit chatting with Jum meanwhile and I must say she reminds me quite a bit of Shakti. HAHAHA! And Paddy kept laughing AT ME. She said:'When I look at your face, I feel like laughing'. THANKS AH! HAHAHA. So while embarking on our long, long walk to the MRT station, Izzy was asking me about Indian names..and he was quite FASCINATED by how North Indian and South Indian names could differ..and how people could differentiate them. HAHA. I am the pro, man! hahhaa!

And I think my Physics tutor thinks that I am this blur block that understands/gains nothing from tutorials. She even called me out and asked me if I understood what she was teaching..cause she thought that I was super blur /: Is my face that naive/kidish/BLUR?! May tells me to close my mouth so as to appear less blur /: So my Physics tutor asked me to solve this question on the board. Perhaps she assumed that I wasn't understanding anything from the tutorial. And May and Slim starting laughing like mad..cause they thought my reaction/expression was funny. Very funny eh. Math was okay. We got back our timed assignment. Was not too bad, I guess. I could have done better ): I shall try doing that for my CAs..which are in like..two weeks?! ):
Chemistry continues to my favourite subject (: (:Atomic structure is a little confusing..but I think overall, I still prefer Chemistry to my other subjects. And GP is killing me. I should start reading the papers regularly. /:

Okay. So I have quite a bit of homework. I finished Physics Vectors homework in school! (: The library is so, so conducive (: Plus, when you get bored, you can always use the Mac computers and start camwhoring (: The pictures that we took using the effects were HILARIOUS! May literally looked like a rabbit! HAHHA. And Will was trying to make his muscles seem bigger than they actually are! Try harder next time, dancer!

I think I really owe a lot to Shakti for this morning's pep talk. Thanks! I love love love love you! ((: And ICE IS BACK. YAY. YAY. YAY! (: (: (:

I am going to watch The Odyssey with Slim! (: (: PEOPLE! COME GRAB YOUR TICKETS! The Friday tickets are selling fast. So hurry! Buy tickets! If not Ms San will KILL me ):
Ticket collection is tmr. Shit. ): Oh well, Shali helped me get sales from her class (: And Wilson and May's OG are buying from me. So, not too bad (:

Okay. Nasri won't be playing tmr ): Stupid flu! And he apparently patched back with his on and off tennis girlfriend. LOL. Shali, don't be jealous. He's still yours (: Hhahhaha!
And Arshavin got Arsenal Player of the Month award (: Woah..he has started his Arsenal career just the way Nasri did. MORE TO COME, BABY!
And by the time I reach home tomorrow, the match would have started. I need to study and do homework. NEED TO! NEED TO!

Okay, I might sound super cheerful and stuff..but I am NOT feeling that way. A facade. Facades. Many. Contemptuous attitude. I screwed it all up. Without realising it.

All right. I gotta go now. THANKS THARA! (:
All right. Gotta run now.
BUH-BYEE!
<333
Victoria Concordia Crescit,

You got me wondering why I like it rough,

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