I just typed an entire post which says about how happy I am.Correction, How happy I was.How perfect life can be.No, ofcourse its not perfect.Damn regret.I realised that I have more reasons to be sad about than to be happy.Its just not the same anymore.No, I don't feel pathetic.I don't know what I feel.Mean, Jealous, Angry, Hurt...Happy?!I DON'T KNOW.What a great dilemma I am in now?Thanks for the memories.I mean it..all the good memories..and the bad ones.Its guarenteed that I will remember the bad ones.I will try not to.Cause I owe you..for all you care, I still love you deep down.YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND.How you used me...How manipulative of you.UGH.I regarded you as someone...someone different.Not like the usual friends I had.I thought you would understand...I thought you will never betray.You did..You did so badly that till today I remember how it felt when I heard it all.Whats the point?Its over.Thats how much I mean to you.Thats how much you love me as a friend.What did I ask from you? NOTHING.Absolutely nothing.And what have you taken from me?You know it for yourself.Yes, I dont regret it..for treating you badly over the past few months.No. Actually I do.Maybe I could have felt better that I had at least given you all that I could for all the good things you've done for me.But..I am human..After all.I am not a saint to be able to forgive and forget so easily.Time heals..WRONG, not for me.It only makes me cringe more whenever I see you.It reminds me everything from the past.You're so yesterday,And I swear, even if you intend to offend or hurt me more,I won't feel hurt or anything.Cause you have done it soo many times that...I have grown immune.Immune to you.Who are you now?Just a somebody to whom I will bid farewell to soon.I spent yesterday night repenting to not have treated you better.Yea..maybe you DO deserve better treatment.But....I think I do too..In some ways.Oh whatever.Its over.Everything is.This friendship..everything.Only facades left in this friendship.I repeat..deep down I still love you. I always will..as a friend who was once there for me.A friend whom I saw my happiness and sadness in.A friend whom I confided practically everything with.A friend whom I thought I will never have to doubt the friendship for.But you...apparently don't mean so much to me anymore.Its jus the way I feel.You're so yesterday.Goodbye, Bye Bye, Loves, Hugs and Kisses,I love you..What a lovely way to say you don't care.Thank you.-Anybody left out there?Labels: goodbye and i love you.
