ARSENAL
I love The Vampire Diaries, Pretty Little Liars, Skins, One Tree Hill, The O.C., Grey's Anatomy and Prison Break.
Cesc Fabregas is my all-time favourite player.
I love quotes, watching movies and photography.
I love MUSIC.
Arsenal is my everything.
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Once a Gunner, always a Gunner,
Victoria Concordia Crescit,
Was listening to Tokio Hotel and Maroon 5.
Went on Tumblr and saw some news about RVP leaving.
Went to Newsnow.
Went to RVP's official website and saw the news that he wasn't gonna renew his contract.
Heart broke.
Became angry.
Tried to accept the situation and tell myself that the cannon is bigger than any player.
Went back to feeling depressed.
Cried.
And here I am blogging with slightly swollen/red eyes.
Why is it always us? Why does it always seem that our players are like mercenaries? I don't really blame him..we haven't won anything solid in awhile and he has a right to question our tactics. But losing our captain in two CONSECUTIVE years? That is just bollocks.
Where do we go from now? Seems like we are back to where we started when Cesc left - boneless and toothless. So what? Another season to regroup and to see another important player leave in the next year?
I don't know what to think or what to say.
It hurts me so fucking much to see what's happening to Arsenal. Who would have thought 8 years ago, we were THE INVINCIBLES and THE team to beat not just in England but in the whole of Europe perhaps.
Who knew?
And what is happening to Arsenal now?
What have we become? A selling club?
I'm too tired to think about anything.
And if I think about this more, I will only end up crying more.
Without RVP, I can't even imagine gunning for the title.
Are we gonna settle for mediocre 4th or 3rd position and rejoice because that was good enough again?
That is definitely not Arsenal's standard and what Arsenal should be looking at.
Oh dear Lord.
What is happening to the club that I love so much?
It's so painful..it hurts so bad.
Such a shame./
Depressing.
No more Vieira and Henry..we continued with Cesc leading us and were close in 07/08 to the title.
Lost our Captain Cesc after a few years..continued after a horrendous start to the season with RVP leading us.
Gonna lose RVP..
Who is gonna lead us now?
Is there absolutely no player who really wants to stay and bring glory?
Not a loyalty like that of Stevie G for Liverpool?
Gone are the days of Tony Adams and Invincibility
What's left?
Only time will tell..
And what can we Gooners do meanwhile?
Wait and pray.
And continuously chant..
Victoria Concordia Crescit..
Because we still have hope and belief in this club somewhere deep down..this club which we love beyond anything else in this world.
Saturday, June 23, 2012 ; 11:52 PM Y
Current Ear Wax:
1. Cafe by Big Bang
From their old album but still..love this song :D
2. One More Night by Maroon 5
Can't wait to get my hands on their new album!!
3. Lies Greed Misery by Linkin Park
Not their best song..but I still like it.
4. Spectrum by Florence + The Machine
Her voice..is just amazing and so unique. It never fails to amaze you with good music in each of their albums. NEED TO GET THIS ALBUM!!!!
5. Wait for Me by Rise Against
I have been listening to them quite a lot recently. Their music is really good!!
Plus, Spain won France 2-0. Kudos to Xabi Alonso who scored both goals. Besides, it was his 100th cap.
Happy that they go to the Semis! Looking forward to the England v Italy game today!!
Anyway, gotta go and plan my timetable for next sem now.
ADIOS!
Got a lecture from the sup.
Was almost late for work.
Heard that there was priority booking for BB through which all the tickets would probably get sold out.
The weather was horrible.
Left my fucking back with my iPod(the love of my life), house keys, ez link card and ACJC jacket at the stupid locker which couldn't we opened when I left.
And now travelling home with 1.50 bucks for bus fare, a water bottle and my phone (my other love of life).
Gahh I should be glad I still have my phone but I feel sooo insanely handicapped without my iPod. My precious iPod which always accompanies me through triumphs and sorrow.
Gahh today was a horrible day.
Please let Spain win tonight and make it better. FML.
I think I have been told a gazillion times I'm not good enough and I guess because of that I stopped believing in myself altogether.
I guess I'm not good at taking criticisms.
Or maybe I just have an in-born deficiency. Maybe my genes were kind of mutated when I was born such that it made me slightly mentally retarded and dumber than the average human being making it harder than normal for me to succeed.
And also caused me to have low confidence or self esteem.
I really can't do this.
I can't do it right.
And I'm sick of being compared to the superior beings around me who serve as a constant reminder of how much of an underachiever I am. And how I'm not good enough. And how my efforts never seem to pay off.
Nothing is right.
And I'm just gonna listen to music and hope the next 3 months zoom past without much pain.
Cause I'm just shutting it all out and pushing it to a small corner of my kind and I'm hoping I don't get a mental breakdown or extreme depression meanwhile.
Life sucks. I know.
Only thing to look forward to: June 8, the start of Euros.
Other than that, my life has no purpose (pretty much).
Victoria Concordia Crescit,
Monday, May 14, 2012 ; 6:23 AM Y
Oh you're in my veins, And I cannot get you out. Beautiful song. Current ear wax <3
Yesterday was the final match day of the season. Arsenal had to win (for their own sake) to confirm third place and a Champions League spot for next season since Chelsea was playing in the final and there was a possibility that finishing fourth might be insufficient to be in the Champions League next season.
1-0 after 4 minutes thanks to Benayoun. THANK GOD, ON THE RIGHT TRACK. 1-1 and then 2-1 to West Brom after 15 minutes. FUCK MY FUCKING LIFE. DON'T THEY REALISE HOW IMPORTANT THIS IS? WE CANNOT FINISH BELOW THE SPUDS (Especially since they were leading in their game) 2-2 ANDRE SANTOS TO THE RESCUE! 3-2 LAURENT KOSCIELNY DOES THE JOB.
FULL-TIME: ARSENAL WINS 3-2 AND HAS FINISHED 3RD AND SECURED A CHAMPIONS LEAGUE SPOT.
WALA! I know..Man United fans might say 'Loser Gunner is satisfied with 3rd place. GGMU'. Seriously, if you're thinking that, FUCK YOU. Yes, third is not the best in the world. But you know what? We had the worst start to the Premier League in 58 YEARS. And we lost Cesc, Clichy and Nasri all at one go over the summer. And we were in 17th position after 7 games. NO ONE thought we could even make it to the top 4. People thought it would be a miracle if we even got into the Europa League. I think even hardcore Gooners had questions about the teams strength. And Wenger made the ultimate decision..went for 5 hours in the last 50 hours of the transfer window. Ofcourse, results didn't improve immediately but they eventually did. We won at The Bridge, won the Spuds, won Pool etc etc. Yes, we still had sketchy patches here and there. But we managed to find our momentum and made it..TO THE TOP 4. With arguably the worst team Arsenal has had in the Wenger era. And we still made it to third and FINISHED ABOVE TOTTENHAM. Proud of our unwavering belief, discipline and never give up attitude. The night is darkest before dawn..INDEED. I wouldn't have believed in that a few months ago...but I do now. Thanks Patt..for everything. You will always be remembered for your 44 years of service. True Gunner <3
So what now? Enter Lukas Podolski and hopefully a few more players. PLUS, CONTRACT RENEWAL FOR RVP AND THEO WALCOTT PLEASE. And with that and greater belief, we can be competing for the title FOR REAL next season. COYG ALL THE FUCKING WAY. WE WILL BE BACK, MARK MY WORDS.
And well, Man City took home the title. I am not bothered about who won..JUST GLAD THAT MAN UNITED DIDN'T WIN :D Kudos to Sergio Aguero and Edin Dzeko for two crazy goals in two minutes to win the title on goal difference. And Man U..heheh sorry, I can't help but feel EXTREMELY happy about this. Did I mention the word EXTREMELY? I AM EXTREMELY HAPPY THAT MAN UNITED DIDN'T WIN. Hehe. Sorry, prejudice against United comes with being a Gunner. And with all your crap about you having won more than us and Pool..sorry, we did it ourselves WITHOUT HELP and biasness towards us. And no matter what you say, Pool and us have more pride than you do. So go on, take out your frustration at us for being happy that you lost..BUT ADMIT IT, MORE PEOPLE ARE HAPPY THAT UNITED LOST AS OPPOSED TO PEOPLE WHO ARE HAPPY FOR CITY.
HEHEE. Hopefully next season will be Arsenal's <3
Till then, don't stop believing Gunners and Gooners and enjoy the Euros and the summer.
